More than a little teary.

May 9, 2013

Journal

I have never liked crying. I remember when I was a kid and we came home from vacation and somehow our cat had died at the vet, I went into my room and stuffed a towel under my door so I could cry alone. My mom and dad came in, though, and cried with me. (That was sweet.)

As an adult, I still don’t like it. It’s too emotion-y, and I get a nasty headache afterward. I have a coping mechanism for not crying in sad situations: I think about eating carrots. Some children’s book (Farmer Boy?) has a great description of eating a carrot – the harder, outer ring and the icy, juicy inside. I start thinking about that and the tears dry up. It’s been handy at many a funeral.

I do get teary at certain things, though. (Drat my getting older.) Heart-tugging videos or commercials bring watery eyes and a drippy tear. Then it’s carrots.

The downside of all this is that once in a while I recognize the need for a soul-purging weep, and I can’t drum it up. When things get crazy I’ll think, “If I could just cry than I could move on from this,” but instead it’s just frustrating, angry me raging around for a while.

(Yeesh. This makes it seem like I’m sad all the time. I’m not! Don’t think I’m spiraling into depression, I just am getting to my ‘today’ story. That was all back story.)

So, I am running up against some deadlines (anxiety), last night at a meeting there was a heart-tugging, awesome devotion at my meeting (teary eyes), this morning there was a little frustration at the start (no tears, but anxiety), than a thank-you note from a parent that made me teary, then the last thing I heard in the car was one of the unspeakable things those kidnappers did to one of their ten-year-long captives.

A minute of crying in the car. A good cry.

And back to carrots.

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Lauren Sommerer is a preschool teacher who likes to build prototypes, grow cats, cook things once, save money, reduce, reuse and recycle.

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6 Responses to “More than a little teary.”

  1. Brad Said on:

    Hmmm… I don’t have a “stop crying” technique. Maybe I should try carrots. It’s movies that always get me. If I show something in class, I always sit in the back to watch.

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  2. Kristi Said on:

    Don’t make me cry. There’s so much stuff that makes me want to cry. I’ll have to start thinking about carrots more often. Yes, carrots and peas; peas and carrots.

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  3. Deborah Said on:

    Even thinking about carrots doesn’t help me. I’ve tried.

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  4. Gretchen Said on:

    There, there, Lauren. I’d suggest either watching this (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8jzrSqgVL_A) so you don’t feel bad about crying. Or, if you want to stop crying just look into a mirror. When I see how pathetic/hideous/ridiculous I look when I crying I stop instantly.

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